GROWN UP

just two years

but why do i feel like so old 

nothing seems to affect me tat much like last time 

seeing things much peacefully

nothing can agitate me that much

mayb a little :P

no more those idol feelings

no more crying in the middle of nite

just going through life with no much feeling

is it a good thing ?

or i should b a little more enthusiastic in everything ?

is it a maturing process ?

a growing up thing ?

thinking back those days in convent

makes me feel i wasn't really an adult back then

so immature

but things were simple

easier to b satisfied and happier

so mayb being immature wasn't such a bad thing X)

ps: everyone become so pretty except me... haizzzzzzz

PESSIMIST

a typical one

till now haven found anyone like me

i dunnu wad is a blessing in disguise

i just look at the present

and say OH DAMN SHIT

and think that future is shitter

thats wad happening now

worse still

i cant stand making myself more miserable

so i cause trouble for others

hmmmm

some ppl call this straight-forward

speaking out our mind

and well everyone tells u it's a good thing

"WOW u are not fake !!!"

"u are being urself !!!"

YEAH RITE

then why are u shunning away

when i say wad i doesnt want in my view

arent i suppose to be protecting myself

when nothing gets into ur way

u gladly use me

when i just voicing out a tiny bit of opinion

u giving that kind of look

i am the one thinking too much ?

wad i am saying is reasonable

not that u will lost anything

just make sure everyone gets their best thing

since i can cooperate with u

doing stuff for ur convenience

cant u do it for me ?

this world is getting darker

sometimes i rather my heart is blind

since it doesnt make any difference

IDOLS

i think u can say i have a weird taste

but seriously i dun look much for appearance

character > looks

especially funny ppl

hmmmmmmm

. . . . . .

ok fine

recently i become a new fan of 黄子华

THROAT

my throat been asking leave from me

not really asking 

nearly died (no kidding)

having fever for 2 days

and well....

the most awesomeness thing that could have happen

just have to happen on that 2 days

mayb i should stop torturing my own body

then it wont keep blinking red light

came so sudden that i got blinded

SELF REMINDER

cherish what myself have now

and stop appreciating what others have

(damn.. seriously what they have is none of my business)

DECISIONS

hardest thing to do

DECIDING

the older we are 

the more responsibilities we have to bear

and it all comes with decision

for someone like me

dunnu what i want

and what i can do

should i listen to others ?

should i listen to my heart ?

should i listen to my brain ?

are my thinking relevant ?

what if it doesnt work ?

am i being too pessimistic ?

ya see...

this is what happen when i try to think

imagine making a decision

how am i suppose to do it ? 

FISHMONGER

pissed off

can u stop being so selfish

can u think in diff views especially for others

wad now 

ur things are things and other ppl's are not ?!

i am really pissed off

IDIOT

回忆

回想起以前做过的事

才发现好没意义

麻烦原来真的都是自己找的

真是无聊