replying someone post~~~

you say you thought you understand her ..
i think you had just overestimated yourself ..
even me ...
after knowing her for 9 years ..
almost a decade ..
can't really say i understand her ..
and you think you can understand her ...
haha
she is an unopened book ..
i never success in open it up but i guess you need a lot more time than me ..

i really don't know what to say ..


by the way ..
you cant blame her ..
she is doing for your sake in case you don't realise ..
we did it for ur sake to be precise ..
we want you to improve and realise what you have done to hurt us ..
seriously ..
as REAL friends ..
we don't really need your apology ...
and you want us to apologise..
i starting to think whether you regard us as you friends ...
no ..
i should say you regard us as your friend..
because based on what you say before ...
you regard a person who you just talk with as friends...
things are different for me ..
we just want you to understand ..
understand how you HAD hurt us ..
how is our feeling ..
but i guess you never thought of it right ???
even if you really have i can't see your effort ..
your effort or the effect of being regretful ...

i really don't understand you now ..
i used to find excuses for you when you do stuff like this ..
i guess i won't do it anymore ...
i thought you are just gullible , innocent or even know nothing ..
but i RIGHT NOW ..
i feel i am dumb ..
i trusted all your acting ..
i just feel you are wearing a mask all the time ..
fake
cunning
crafty ??
i don't know ..
tat's all i can say i guess ..

this time ..
i want to be honest ..
i don't want to feel guilthy ..
acting as though nothing has happen ..
i don't want to even think whether i am becoming like you ..
fine ..
whatever is your decision ..
i will respect it ..
i won't make it awkward for us..
as i know ..
u are always scared of awkward and embarass..
guess what ..
i think i am absurd also ..
i actually hope you will cry after seeing this post ..
at least it touches your heart ..
at least you read it sincerely ..
at least it means to me that you understand what i meant ..
at least you feel something ..
i hope i know you enough ...