NO FORCING

seriously no forcing ?

why cant i feel it

u keep telling me to take med

and i have been telling u i dun wan it

then u ask me why 

well...

i told u i wasn't interested

and u ask me why again

because i am not interested !!!

is there a reason why u are not interested in something ?

so i told u straight in the face

even if i do go

i am not doing it cause i wanted to help ppl

or some noble reasons

then u ask me

then why are u gonna study that if that is not the reason

CAUSE U PPL WANTED ME TO

CAUSE IT IS UR DREAM

AND U KEEP TELLING ME LIKE I NEED TO FULFILL IT FOR U

LIKE I HAVE THE RESPONSIBILITY TO 

AND U TELLING ME THIS IS NOT FORCING

U PPL MAKE IT SOUND LIKE SO EASY

LIKE NOT A BIG DEAL

LIKE I AM SUPPOSE TO DO IT

LIKE IF I DIN I LET EVERYONE DOWN

i never said all this out

but i nearly cried thinking this in my mind at that moment

do ppl really think it is real easy

to study it?

to not being pressure when i am doing it ?

to memorise the whole stack of anatomy or wadever book ?

and even if i graduate successfully

to face the patient's family when they are completely depending on u when they are helpless and perhaps hopeless ?

to face the rest of my life doing something i dun like ? 

i am the one facing it

i am the one living my life

i really dun understand

dun understand 

and never ever will